Sophomore Slump and Freshman Fifteen's

I've Never fully understood the meaning of sophomore slump, and to be quite honest, I've only heard the phrase and assumed it means what i think it does. In any case its very much applicable to me i suppose. My sophomore year was a very strange turning point in my life. The girl of my dreams came to be in reality the girl in my life, at least for three days anyways. though it was a short relationship, i can't help and look back at the various moments we shared, some memorable, others just plain controversial. I still remember one specific instance. It was Grad Night, She hugged me and for the first time showed me a direct sign of interest, she pushed her hands through my hair and said "your so adorable !!!!" I felt like i literally melted and became liquid.i can still feel it sometimes. When i think about it now it still makes me feels scarred but in a good way i guess. I suppose there will always be a part of me that will find it hard to let her go. Straying away from that topic just a bit, my current relationship is a confusing one. I love her very much but find it hard to keep my head on a logical path, we argue a lot, sometimes it's for nothing, other times for reasons she can't seem to understand. Sometimes i feel like I am persuading her to stay rather than letting it be her own desire to do so. Then there are days where nothing goes wrong and we are completely happy. Who knows though, hopefully things will workout because i love her quite a lot!!!

Now for the freshmen fifteen. Entering college about a year ago has left me with some extra weight. I used to be scared it made me into an ugly, undesirable person, but honestly, i think people find me rather cute, though i think it was more so when i was skinnier. Well in any case I am currently training in tennis for long hours (sometimes up to 5 continuous hours of training) so hopefully that will slim me down a bit. 

Life tosses me in many directions. I suppose eventually I'll land on a slope where I'll have no choice but to coast. Then I'll find my answers, when i reach the bottom.